Or better yet, "That Damned Kiss." - A Mighty Wind
Or slightly more diffused, "You know you've ruined it for me..." - Out Of Africa
We all have had events in our lives where one little detail eventually became more than just a detail in the overall fabric of our experience. It morphed into an major element of the plot, influencing further development and screwing up your plan for where you thought you were going. This butterfly did that to me:
A few days ago, Rachel came in the house and said, "Have you seen the new butterfly?"
We both went out and she showed me the purple butterfly that someone had covertly attached to Homer the Pine Tree overhanging CJ's Butterfly Bush. We occasionally find things on or around CJ left by people we didn't see and they are always appreciated but I think I must have been in a certain frame of mind to receive this certain butterfly because it changed the course of my psyche.
Rachel and I had just come back from our vacation (it was fabulous, in case you hadn't heard) and I wasn't ready to get back into reality. On top of that, I had been having lots of little "moments" that were weighing me down. Moments brought on by the weirdest things. Like hearing a song or being in a place where Charlotte had been. The bus was certainly back, parked squarely on my chest, and my "woe-is-me" song writing machine was picking up speed. And a part of me was ready to stay on that path for a while. There's value (at least to me) in feeling the pain. At least when I feel the pain, I know I'm remembering her. (I hate "at leasts")
And then I saw that damned butterfly. It wasn't like the weight was lifted or anything too dramatic like that but it reminded me that people are thinking of us, which is comforting, and that I need to get my head on straight. It even altered the direction of one of the songs I had been working on for a long time.
The problem is that it was fixing to be a pretty good sad song before then. Now it's all confused and I may have to break it up into two different songs that sound a lot alike.
Be that as it may, the song writing machine (along with my attitude) has come out of its nose-dive and has leveled off for now. The moments are still there, nothing has changed in that respect, but I'm at least able to deal with them for the time being.
Thanks to whoever placed that damned butterfly.
In other news, the Foundation is ending the year with both good and bad news. The good news is that we were able to help 30 families, one way or another, to the tune of $14,000. That takes the total amount of aid since incorporation to around $27,000 in two years. (We thought we were closer to $30K for a while but it still ain't too shabby)
The bad news is that we still have 13 families on the waiting list. That's $6,500 if you want an amount. We're really hoping that some last minute fundraising opportunities will help narrow that gap.
One not-so-last-minute FUN-raiser is the Ukrop's Monument Avenue 10K on March 31, 2012. TEAM CJ will be in effect and there are different ways you can get involved:
1 - Join TEAM CJ, collect pledges, and run in the 10k. If you commit to raising $500 or more, CJSTUF will give you a code to register for free!
2 - Go to MY fund raising page and make a pledge. My goal for all of TEAM CJ is $10,000 but if I could do that personally, wouldn't that be totally cool!?! The Mother Runners are going to be involved somehow. We haven't solidified details but there may be a pink running skirt involved! :-)
3 - Be a cheer-er for TEAM CJ along the route. We need spirit, we know we do! We need spirit, how about YOU!?!
By the way, there are new racing shirts (real running shirts!) for all Team CJ participants!
GO TEAM CJ!!!
January will also be "Remember CJ Month" when participating stores will be donating up to 5% of sales for the month to CJSTUF. Our first participant will be the Bed Corner in Stonewall Square in Mechanicsville. Come buy a bed or mattress in January and help CJSTUF!
If you own a business or know of one that would be interested in participating, have them contact us asap.
I think that's all for now. I'm sure Rachel will be back on with something I've forgotten.
Bye for now,
p.s. If you want me to explain the chocolate chip cookie reference, please let me know.